Yesterday was the day I had my carotid duplex ultrasound, only to be met with disappointment. Fortunately (or unfortunately) the results came back clean. This hits me like a ton of bricks because the whole time I had this awful suspicion of some kind of aneurysm inside my neck. A bit of a bold assumption I had to begin with, but one within reason, considering that it literally feels like a palpitating mass inside my neck whenever I'm physically active. Now I'm mentally in this dark cloud where I'm just beginning to question my own true sanity. IS this real, or have I let this shit get to my head. If whatever it is exists, then what the hell is really going on inside my neck? What is it, and why can't it be seen through any of the previous tests I've had? How could it cause such crippling giddiness and vertigo? Lastly, is there even a way out of this predicament? It's been eight months since I've been dealing with these problems. All I know is, I am way too fucking young to be dealing with these problems and it would be fantastic to be back on my feet. Because fuuuuuuuuck this.